Welcoming speech

Hey friends and family...

Many might wonder..huh!! hung yin also wants to blog?!?! The answer is yes..after i have seen a few of my friend's blogs, i realised that i do need a blog too. But why shouldn't i started it years before? The reason is last time i used to have a bunch of friends sparing times with me to hear what i feel and what i thinks. But now, not that i am blaming my friends but we should understand the university life. It is no more that easy and free life, no more the life of having a lot of friends surrounding you or maybe i myself do not have time to spend with my friends when they asked me to go out. Now that i have started my degree course, i realised that we should learn to be alone, learn to stand on own feet and learn to have lunch alone or maybe go home alone. That's y i choose to create my own blog in order to give myself a chance to express the deep thoughts inside. I dont wish to be insane after my degree course. Hehe..

Now that i am in degree, i finally realised that life is so different during foundation time. Although we always complain that the place wasn't big enough, food was not tasty, air-con are always malfunctioning, the lecture rooms are like classrooms and etc, yet i think that it was the most memorable and enjoyable time. I could walked pass the foyer, having alot of friends to say hi. The people there are so familiar and friendly although the place is very small to so-called university. Always will look forward to go to uni because you know that there is a bunch of your classmates that will crack jokes and make the atmosphere so lively and happy. I could remember that TD4 has never fail to make every classes ended with laughter. But now.....it is totally the opposite way. I realised that i have fallen into a dark room where i cannot see any eager of going to uni. Every monday was the worst day and when it started, i was looking forward how long will it takes to reach friday so that i do not have to go back to a place full of strangers. I miss TD4!!!!

I have tried sitting in the big staircase(maybe wanted to make a survey), i looked at every students that walk through the big gate heading towards the canteen and lift, i realised that out of 10 maybe there is not even a single person that i am familiar with or maybe i should say, i have not even seen them before in my entire life. How scary and terrified the feelings is, switching from an environment full of laughter and friends to a place where you do not even know a single person. I felt like crying everytime i recalled the day.

Soon, when i know about my tutorial group, i knew that i am in a class with michelle and khai yuen. Both of them are not counted as close friends during foundation but now we spend most of the time together. Michelle said that we are the most familiar strangers. Indeed, it is true. Talking back about my tutorial group, i realised how tiny i am especially during the basic professional writing classes. Oh gosh! Some of them are superb in their general knowlegde and english grammer. They know which king, what classical movies, (i cant even remember the questions already). The feeling is bad where you feel to squeeze yourself into a hole when you realised that how shallow your knowlegde is compared to them. And after almost 4 weeks studying in the same tutorial group, i havent had any new friends yet especially from the art streams people. Again i realised that my social skill has drop to somewhere or maybe vanish in the air where i couldnt find my courage to talk to them. Everybody seems letting a cold shouler. Maybe they already come in a group so lone rangers like me do not get a chance to blend into their group.

I can still remember how moody i was on the 1st week of degree. Everyday when i took the train back to klang, i would wonder what a choice i have made? Do i have a chance to regret? What life i will be leading if i took engineering course, having to live with my bestfriend and being in the same campus with most of my TD4 friends? This is just a mere thought. I know i do not have a chance to regret anymore or in other words i cannot regret. The word regret cannot and must not exist in my dictionary. Therefore, everytime when i felt lonely, i would tell myself it is just the starting. Life would get better when you adapt to the new environment. I cannot and should not stop. The only thing that i can do is to move forward and to face a new life. Sometimes being alone wasn't as bad as i think. It can be fun to go shopping alone rite??

Hence, friends out there, if you are feeling as lonely as i do in the new environment, don't feel sad. Friendship that has been made will never lost neither do being alone is a bad thing. It is just the way how we look at the situation and how we adapt to new environment. Life can be wonderful if you try to enjoy it. There are always up and downs in our life. Gambateh my friends and also myself!!!!!!! I shall can make my life as interesting as i want it to be because it is my LIFE!!!!